Tue Jun 12, 2012 6:22 pm by Loki27
Once upon a time there was a man, pestered with boredom, and a woman faced with an inevitable reality, living separated on opposite sides of the world - meeting in a game. This game: Haypi Kingdom.
Wow, that sounds super deluded and corny, doesn’t it? In fact though, that's what it is.
(It’s nothing dramatic nor theatrically, just two people finding each other within each other. A story down to earth with just a little touch to the sky.)
So this is me and where the story begins:
I never thought of me as something special, never thought i was the kind of girl that needed a change. Who needed an escape to reality. Being in a relationship i wasnt happy in (and i know many haypi players can relate to that) i tried to distract myself. Seek attention of strangers (who later on are fully worth of being called friends) and became a stripper.. Well, this would have been a good alternate plot - unfortunatly i am rather lazy to move so instead I simply downloaded Haypi - out of curiosity and found myself within a world unable to go by unnoticed.
At first i was overwhelmed by the gameplay, asked noob questions in wc and thought haypi will forever stay science to me, but i got the hang of it and did what everyone else did, too. Joined an alliance, build an army, farm, lvl up, search for pp hits, scouted and scouted and scouted. And eventually i became.. well, a decent haypi player. (by far not a good player, i was too focused on chatting)
I successfully escaped reality until i actually neglected reality. Playing at work, while going out, on the street, while driving (dont try this kids) - i was addicted. Mesmerized and fully absorbed by haypi kingdom. You can say.. It had my soul.
The good thing about online games is that u live a parallel life. U become who u want to be, who u really are. u dont have to hide behind fake smiles or have to meet expectations others set in you - you are free, cause no one can harm you. no one can touch you. U become part of an online society, an online world, being an online person. (And before u object - yes, no one can harm u, i mean seriously how? capslock u to death? u can just block them - a feature real life obviously is missing)
I distanced myself from my real life. But what was my real life? It wasnt anything special - i lived together with my (now ex) bf. Was kinda opressed by him. He neglected and ignored me (BEFORE i started haypi btw). I tried talking, tried saving what couldnt and shouldnt be saved. Should I have tried more? Maybe. But i didnt - cause i wanted more. I wanted to be selfish and b the center of someone elses world instead of working my a** off to pay off his bills (sorry for the hatred here, in fact i dont hate him, i am thankful cause it was neccessary) So i mentally quit. Physically i have still been there - kind of more like a shell, a living corpse than a full-pledged human being. but i was there, not strong enough to get away. Dont get me wrong, Im not whining here of course there is always two people at fault. But lets say this: I lost myself. I forgot who i was and what made me who i was. I forgot my true laughter and how joy felt like. But haypi and its players gave it back to me - little by little. I was appreciated and befriended for who i am. But i still was there. I was still weak. And i still couldnt get away from him.
And then *Ba dum tss* i met him, Loki27. I (consciously) met him after I took a little break from haypi, a failed attempt to save the failing relationship. I saw him in wc before, didn’t pay much attention though, as I thought he was an immature 13-year old boy (no offense – just too young, Im 24 btw.) But then we were in the same alliance. The alliance was named Eagles and they called him Lolita. He was funny, full of himself and strong. He still is, as of today. And he thought I was a boy. I cant blame him though, I was nasty and boyish, in and outer game. And, of course, still am. Maybe worse than before. We chatted, talked, talked some more. I took interest in him. He was smart and I felt like we were on the same wavelength – one of a kind. It started off as a joke, a game. Flirting and haypi was inseparable. And he? He was just one of many. As I was to him. Makes me sound like an online attention *cough* seeker? I probably was – a method to escape. So what made him special? I didn’t know, but he was. He showed me how much more I can mean to a person who used to be a stranger to me. That it is possible to be the center of his world. I was destroyed and damaged and it was probably very easy for him to ease my heart with soothering words. But I never thought of me as naïve and always trusted my judgement in people. It didn’t fail me before. With only words he gave me the strength and courage to go for happiness and be who I want to be that he would not want me to change and that he would always treat me well. I believed him. I wanted and needed to believe him. He was my escape, my anchor in the world of darkness I bestowed upon myself. So I did, what I didn’t had the guts to do so before – I broke up with my (ex) bf. And it felt good. It felt right and it was right. One would have thought with the new freedom I could have forgotten about him. It could have been anyone as I was weak and damaged. But no one else before him was able to. And without being arrogant, im not ugly. I did have offers, not just in haypi. But beside that, I only seeked his attention and him himself.
So the rest isn’t that exciting. He gave me strength when I was weak. Lifted me up when I was down. How touching. But how to go any further from that? Would this stay online forever? Would we work out in real life too? Would we bond then? Understand each other? Strengthen each other? Have fun together? All those worries didn’t go by unnoticed. We angered each otherquite often (mostly it was me – pms. 24/7 [Being a woman is hard.]) The only solution? Yes, meeting each other. So.. I got a two weeks off, bought a plane ticket and *BOOM* got from germany to america. But wait.. that easy? No no no, my parents objected (im asian and asian parents are.. well.. asian..) I had to persuade them with the bestest of my ever used persuading skills. After a few weeks of terrorizing them, they let me go, trusting my judgement. (They were mostly afraid of him being a raper who might murder me, being the stranger he was).
We met and it was awkward. Let me tell you, meeting online he was a knight, meeting in real life, he didn’t wear any shining armor. It was weird talking to each other that much (since we mostly wrote), and English not being my native language was an additional obstacle. But after a day or so, it worked out. We understood each other, in each way. And i never wanted to part from him again. This two weeks were the best two weeks in my life so far. But every fairy tail has its ending. And this one had its after that. Nah, just kidding. The parting was sad indeed, but we both knew it wouldn’t stay that way for ever. We needed to find another solution. Days past by, months and tears have been shed, until the solution was finally within our grasp: He, being the brave man that he is, gave up. Everything. Leaving everything behind for me. Family, friends, properties. And moved on. Moved in.. with me. I was afraid that it would not work out, cause living together is a whole new and different thing. I don’t know if it was courage, or naivety, but he said that it either does or doesn’t work out, but that we wont ever find out unless we tried. And he had a point there. So after being separated for four months, we were re-united. In Germany. Up to this day, 3 months and more going. Happily ever after. And all thanks to a moment of boredom, a result to a chain of which seemed like coincidences, leading to download a game, which is not only a game, but a home. And a family. A platform to meet strangers, long lost friends and new winning relationships. Leading to where we are right now. On the couch, about to see a movie. So I hope you enjoyed our little story. How two strangers, through haypi, became friends – and eventually – lovers and WARNING CORNINESS one entity. He is my best friend and my greatest critic. I am very thankful to Haypi. It is part of my life - It changed my life drastically and up to this day, I still log in, say hi and lurk around.
(p.s. when you land at an American airport as a foreigner, and they ask u for the reason as of why youre visiting the states – don’t tell the guards you are going to visit a stranger, from the internet, worst a game, worse an online game. They only look at you bewildered and think youre crazy. (he said I was brave but I think he meant crazy) And search through your suitcases and ask more questions. I was too honest, they caught me off-guard and I couldn’t think of anything better than the whole truth -.-)
(p.s.s. posting from his forum account cause IF this story were to get acknowledged, other account isn't in use (only chatting xD))
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